been months since my last post. busy wif exams and finally after waiting for 6 days for my final paper, craning my neck, the exam's finally over. results was impressive last semester. but i doubt i'd achieve the same feat again. nonetheless, i hope it'll still within my expectations. hopefully it'll be good news by then.
Many things to do now though. but at least its things that i enjoy doing. car matters and baf club matters. gonna need to do up an impressive website for the baf community.juz u wait. hahaha.
things hasnt been well at home though. our lives are screwed upside down by this basturd. a selfish basturd who doesnt have the least bit of righteousness, honesty, appreciation, and most importantly, an asshole who totally dun deserve the trust some1 who treated him as a best fren for 20 over years. to u asshole: it was a mistake being merciless to you; it was stupid of us to put in so much trust in you. to think that ur one of the best fren to some1 for 20 over yrs, yet u can do such things to us. i cant find any word worse than disappointed, but i must let you know u have broke some1s trust utterly. YOU are the first and i hope the last i've ever met to have gone to this extreme. YOU have broken the life of some1 who once hold u dear in his heart and his family. i do not believe in afterlife, nor do i believe in karma. wats done cannot be undone. I do hope dat u'd nv appear in my life again. If ever you do, i would if given any opportunity, not to wish u dead, but to torture u. Dun expect me to be forgiveful. NO, i'm not. why? because trust is a value i hold dearest in my life.
Trust. a word that I honor so much, a word dat i hold it in high regards. even to my family and my best of frens, hanqiang, ivan, alicia. so few really close frens dat i hav. I expect total trust from all. in return, i'd definitely honor ur trust in me. I must say i cant tolerate ppl close to me have doubts bout me. And now, its trust dat brought us to this stage. ironic. but still, i hold dear to the people i feel deserve my trust.
This is an emotional and violent entry, i know. the vengence's been inside me for weeks throughout the exams. its onli until now dat i get to pour it out.
On the dragon boat incident in cambodia, my sympathy and condolences to the people related. I'm not good wif words but it really touched my heart somehow. here's a take on wat i feel. a song i dedicate to all of you.
Elton John - Candle in the wind
Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
You called out to our country
And you whispered to those in pain
Now you belong to heaven
And the stars spell out your name
And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will
Loveliness we've lost
These empty days without your smile
This torch we'll always carry
For our nation's golden child
And even though we try
The truth brings us to tears
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years
And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will
Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
Goodbye England's rose
From a country lost without your soul
Who'll miss the wings of your compassion
More than you'll ever know
And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And you footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will
